This week, I think I’m making activity a priority. I have things going on every day this week, but I’m sure I can get some activity in and make it something I would miss this week.
Today, I mowed my lawn. I spent 1:19:59 in the yard, walked 1.23 miles and managed to burn “443 kilo calories” according to Runtastic. My Fitbit was decidedly nicer-it gave me credit for burning 600 calories. It was humid and cloudy, but I didn’t let that stop me today. I was griping about not being active, so I made sure that I kept my word to myself. I worked out.
I’ve also joined a challenge with a friend. She’s doing a squat challenge and after asking her about it, I decided I’d join her. I did 36 squats yesterday-my thinking was that squats will help my cycling in that it’ll help strengthen my legs. I was going to alternate legs and arms, but I promised that I would join her in her challenge. It’s a month long thing. I started it yesterday, unofficially, but added in another 10 today, so I have 46 squats to my credit. I’m also looking at a challenge that WeAre2Fit2Quit is running. I am intrigued by his challenge and am thinking that yes, I can and should do this. Of course, I haven’t quite made up my mind how I’m going to sneak in that challenge (not sure on how to do Plies and I don’t like butt kickers, but hey, only 7 is fine for me…but that’s 7 x 2 because I have 6 things to do and my name (the one I am going by for this challenge) is 3 letters long. I may get my husband involved in it too. Just depends on him.
I can tell already that the next 30 days are going to be interesting. That’s the squat challenge alone. The one challenge for this week, I’m looking at. If I start it today, I can finish it on Saturday (and I’d have to add in additional reps because I missed yesterday). I am planning on making this a good week. I promised myself I would work out and work out, I will.
I need motivation. I need a bit of accountability. Who’s up for pushing me and asking me, DID YOU WORK OUT TODAY? I won’t get cranky and crabby. I promise.
Even when I think I’m getting enough movement in, I find out that I’m not. I did numerous loads of laundry today, which necessitated walking to and from my master bedroom multiple times, plus going into the laundry room and back out. Did I get many steps? Not only no, but absolutely, resoundingly NO WAY. It’s frustrating. I wanted to think that I was a fairly active person today, but even going to Walmart for a small-ish shopping trip wasn’t enough to raise me up over 5k steps. I won’t make my plan today, that’s for sure.
I have done other exercise today, so I am not bashing myself under any circumstances. However, I know that in order to lose weight, you have to burn more calories than you consume. That’s the law of weight loss, as we all know. Now I have to figure out what to do to increase my activity level. Some ideas include riding my bike (weather permitting), walking somewhere (again, weather permitting, unless I go to a mall, which isn’t likely), push ups (not going to earn me activity points), Wii Fit, dancing, etc. It’s frustrating to me. I want to be able to go brag to my friends, “Hey, I just worked out and did this, this, this and this.” Instead, I have to maintain radio silence. The only good thing is, I’m not eating tons of food. In fact, at present, despite me buying things for dinner, I’m not likely to eat because I’m not overly hungry. I’m listening to that cue from my body. I’m feeling “blah” as my daughter and I like to say. It’s not a good feeling. I feel like I’ve eaten entirely too much and yet, I can list what I have eaten and it’s again, not high points. Maybe it was the romaine lettuce I devoured for lunch. 0 points, except for the salad dressing (fat-free honey mustard). I’m just all of a sudden feeling rather-stuffed. Lunch was many hours ago too.
I guess I need to go chase my lawn mower around my yard again. I’m sure I’ll get some activity that way and it’s something I actually like doing.
I’ve been thinking…a lot. I’ve been thinking about trying to get back into training, only this time on my own. I know that I can push the envelope and get myself into a reasonable facsimile of a martial artist.
I don’t have a true school to work with anymore. I’ve left one school due to a conflict with an instructor. I left another school due to my own insecurity. For the past two years, I’ve not concentrated on anything. I’ve just existed. I have taken Tai Chi, which I loved, but stopped those lessons in February after having to be out for a week with surgery.
I have a “BOB”. I have a garage to work out in. I just lack the motivation to push myself into working out. I have spoken with a friend of mine, who has warned me that trying to train myself is not always a good thing. He’s also made an offer that I’m mulling over. I can work with him–I’ll have to document ALL of my training and I’ll have to make darned sure that I’m following said training. At least once or twice a month, I’ll have to go to Houston to visit and work with him. I’ve forgotten so much more than I let on that frankly, I’m scared. I’m afraid that I’ll let myself down. I have high expectations for myself. I expect perfection. It’s not a good thing to do, but I am honest about it.
So, I’m mulling over the WHEN of when I’m going to start training. I need to keep up training with Alba. I need to push myself into not being lazy about documenting my food in my journal too. I spend entirely too much time saying “I’ll get around to it” and then that “round to it” never comes. I have to get into the frame of mind of DO IT NOW. Period. End of story.
Alba knows about BOB. We’ve talked about using him. I guess I need to get off my but and make myself do what I want to do. I can come home from work, leave the car in the driveway, move BOB out into the middle of the garage and work on kicks, punches, etc. It’s a matter of WHEN.
I also need to give Sa Bu Nim an answer. He’s patient and isn’t pushing me but…I need to continue to THINK. I need to talk to hubby and see what his opinion is.
I’m torn between being lazy and wanting to push myself back into some semblence of shape. I need to decide how important martial arts is to me. I talk to martial artists on a regular basis. I have acquired a good friend who is willing to go out of his way to help me. I need to help myself first.
The mind is a powerful thing. I need to push mine into submission and meditate on what I really want.