This was in my email this morning:
|Elder’s Meditation of the Day – January 2
|“People have to be responsible for their thoughts, so they have to learn to control them. It may not be easy, but it can be done.”
|— Rolling Thunder, CHEROKEE
|We control our thoughts by controlling our self talk. At any moment we choose we can talk to ourselves differently. The fight comes with the emotions that are attached to our thoughts. If our emotion is high and seems to be out of control, we can say to ourselves STOP IT!, take a few deep breaths, then ask the Creator for the right thought or the right decision or the right action. If we practice this for a while, our thought life will be different. It helps if in the morning we ask God to direct our thinking. God loves to help us.
Great Spirit, today, direct my thinking so my choices are chosen by You.
“People have to be responsible for their thoughts, so they have to learn to control them.” Basically, stop the negative self talking. Don’t put yourself down. I get it! This was well sent this morning, I think.
Occasionally something comes along that I just need to share. This was one of those things. It has me thinking today about how I’ve defeated myself in the past by talking negatively to myself. In order to be successful, you must believe in yourself. I’ve told myself numerous times, “Oh, you can’t do that. You’re too (insert the appropriate adjective/adverb/noun here). That’s part of why I’m attending WW meetings. I’m trying to change the self talk. Making it better. I’m the only one who can. All the self-help books in the world won’t change one who won’t change his or herself first. You have to WANT the change.
That being said, this is definitely food for thought for today. Time to take a long look at my own inner talking. My words to myself. I need to be a kinder, gentler person to myself because if I don’t forgive myself and love myself first, nobody else will.
It’s the first day of 2013 and I am happy to say that I have been successful in ONE THING. I have successfully tracked *all* my food that I’ve eaten today. Hooray!! Score one for me! I need to document my eating all the time. I’ve heard people say “I know what I can eat and what I can’t eat, so I don’t need to track.” Well, congratulations! You’re a MUCH better person than me! In order for me to be successful, I have to document. It’s training to see what I’m actually putting into my mouth. I’m also documenting my activities. I posted on Facebook yesterday that I was bummed out that 20 minutes of vacuuming was not very many activity points. The point is, I moved my butt!
Fitbit says I’ve only walked about 25,040 steps this week. Again, HOORAY!! It’s tiny. There are people on my friends list (whom I would hide but I’m not going to–I just deliberately ignore them) who have hundreds of thousands of steps. I don’t get that many steps in a week. It was bad enough that I deliberately changed my 10,000 step/daily goal to less. I sit all day long and don’t move. Last week when my office was practically empty due to holidays, I got the most activity I’ve gotten in a really long time. As I’m also not out riding my bike, my steps are also lower. That will change once it warms up. Until then, I’ll have to figure out what to do to get my activity level up.
I was invited to a push up competition for the month of January. I haven’t clicked on the ‘accept’ yet. There’s no need for my fitness fails to be out in the public where I can be judged. I’m rather a solitary person. I don’t like to publicize my failures. That’s why I asked a small group of friends to help me. I don’t post my status updates on Facebook. They get once a week updates and that’s enough. Of course, if I get a “get your ass moving” text, I don’t take offense either.
I read the Fitness Magazine article about Allison Sweeney. She said she had to put aside her feelings of having to be “perfect”. I’m going to look at taking her advice. It’s not hurting anyone but me. I’m only in competition with myself.
I’ve had a lot of time to think as I’m driving to and from work, both in the morning after dropping my oldest off at school and in the evening on the way home. I think as I’m singing or listening to music or words or something. It’s an essential part of who I am. I like to think. Sometimes I overthink things, but that’s just another facet of my personality.
The other day, there was a discussion about stress between my director and myself. We discussed the fact that I feel highly stressed a lot of the time at work. He said that it was his observation that that was just me and my personality, how I want things to be perfect and place a high emphasis on things. I’ve been thinking about that as it relates to my martial arts because if I’m getting stressed out at work because work is not perfect, what sort of an onus am I putting on my martial arts? Am I putting so much stress on myself that I’m slowly murdering my spirit?
In order to be a success at anything one sets out to do, they must exhibit a strong desire to do it. My desire is to improve myself, both mentally and physically. If it means I have to re-think the way I’m behaving, if I’m abusing my spirit, then I need to examine my motives and see what I can do to improve that. I don’t want to carry around an invisible lead overcoat, dragging myself down and keeping me from achieving my goals.
A good friend or two have told me, in no uncertain terms, to “get over myself”. The really funny thing is, I can agree with them. I am hurting myself as a person every time I cop an attitude, every time I let my own ideas of what things have to be like get in my way.