I have been tracking faithfully on MyFitnessPal and somewhat faithfully on eTools, plus using a paper tracker so I can find where my issues are. It’s amazing to see how many times I “overate”. When I did, I found a surprise too–I lost weight!! That was a huge surprise. Even bigger was the fact that I am adding protein to what I typically eat–eating MORE and that’s been the key to my losses. No, I’m not losing huge amounts (we’d all be scared senseless!) but I’m seeing some losses.
This week, I didn’t eat as well as I should have and I saw a gain. It was .8. I didn’t freak out, I didn’t go ballistic and pout. I accepted it. I knew, going in, that I’d probably see a gain. Again, not a big deal. Gains and losses are part of the journey. I just have to knuckle down and refocus, remember to TRACK and keep it up. I’m not confident enough in my abilities to know completely how many points something is. Part of the key to success is being able to recognize this. I’m working on it.
I have a week (well, four days) to work on eating right. I also need to add in exercise because I want to start being more active. I’ve made excuses and that’s all they are–excuses. I’ve said “It’s too hot.” or “I’m too tired”. Those are JUST excuses. I can ride my bike for 30 minutes when it’s 100+ after work and I’m not going to melt. Likewise, I can take shorts and a tee shirt, plus my sneakers and get in a 20-30 minute walk at work. It’ll be movement. I know someone who has a heart problem, who is out every single day, RUNNING. If she can do that, I’m pretty darned sure I can get my lazy butt off the couch and “move it, move it.”
I went to a bike shop yesterday to find a good pair of cycling shorts because I DO want to start riding more. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to get any help because there were a bunch of super fit guys in there. I need to learn to not let my insecurities get the best of me. I need to learn to ask for help, especially when it comes to making sure I’m fitted out to be able to do what I eventually want to do, which is to try to ride with a cycling club. I like cycling enough that I’m thinking I’d like to try it.
I am finding that it is NOT easy to eat well. It’s hard to make good choices that include vegetables, protein and essential oils. I have yet to include a healthy oil in my food choices. I AM eating more protein though. That’s the key to this week. More protein. I just have to make sure my choices are healthy proteins. This means that I have to actually cook better foods. As part of the WW 360 program, there’s “Success Handbook” that allows you to work with it to find your trigger points, motivation, losses, etc. I am actually USING the book now! I’ve had it for about 3-4 months but its been sitting on my counter. Now I’m writing in it (it’s interactive) and thinking about my reasons for following Weight Watchers. I have always subscribed to the “you have to cut out fats/oils/sugars” theory, although I didn’t do well with the “cut out sugars”. In reading the success handbook, in talking to my Leader, I’ve actually learned a bit. You can’t cut everything out (that was the topic of the last Meeting, too!). If you do, you binge. That’s always been me. Fad diets? Yep. I’ve tried ’em. High protein/low carb (think pre-Atkins). Yep, tried that too. South Beach diet? Been there. Lost weight on the HP/LC but because I didn’t stick with it, I gained it all back, with friends. I want my weight loss to “stick”. I have struggled my entire life with diets that didn’t work. I was never taught about portion control. I have worked on that recently. I now measure things like peanut butter. One tablespoon is a LOT. You wouldn’t think it would be, but it is HUGE. I have joined and quit WW more times than I care to count. I tried going it alone several times, but fizzled out in ’00 and again in ’02. In ’03, I started up in Martial Arts, so was working out, but didn’t really count points. I don’t believe I ate correctly then, but because I was working out three hours a week, and Saturdays, I managed to lose some weight. Before my black belt testing started, when I was around green to red belt, I started up on WW again. I actually attended meetings. I lost/gained/lost but had impetus to keep going. Then I got sick for a week with Strep, lost huge (you can’t really eat if your throat hurts). I didn’t gain it back, amazingly. I randomly followed WW, but left the program while I was training for my belt test in September. I managed to lose and kept most of the weight off. I was never “tiny” at best. I gained and lost and gained and lost. I re-joined WW last August, so it’s been almost a year now. August 16 is my year anniversary. I have really only lost 12 pounds in that year. I became annoyed, frustrated and more frustrated. In the past two months, I’ve seen gains. Was NOT pleased with myself. I finally decided to ask for help. I couldn’t keep seeing gains. I started tracking (on MFP only, but recently again on WW and on paper). I asked my leader for help. She said I had to count the points, but she didn’t say I absolutely HAD to use eTools. I am using them so that I can count my points. I will not give up WW…I will be successful. I can feel it. Maybe this week will be a good one. I am not happy about my gains, but there it is. I gained. I am not “the biggest loser”. Not yet, anyway.