I have been tracking faithfully on MyFitnessPal and somewhat faithfully on eTools, plus using a paper tracker so I can find where my issues are. It’s amazing to see how many times I “overate”. When I did, I found a surprise too–I lost weight!! That was a huge surprise. Even bigger was the fact that I am adding protein to what I typically eat–eating MORE and that’s been the key to my losses. No, I’m not losing huge amounts (we’d all be scared senseless!) but I’m seeing some losses.
This week, I didn’t eat as well as I should have and I saw a gain. It was .8. I didn’t freak out, I didn’t go ballistic and pout. I accepted it. I knew, going in, that I’d probably see a gain. Again, not a big deal. Gains and losses are part of the journey. I just have to knuckle down and refocus, remember to TRACK and keep it up. I’m not confident enough in my abilities to know completely how many points something is. Part of the key to success is being able to recognize this. I’m working on it.
I have a week (well, four days) to work on eating right. I also need to add in exercise because I want to start being more active. I’ve made excuses and that’s all they are–excuses. I’ve said “It’s too hot.” or “I’m too tired”. Those are JUST excuses. I can ride my bike for 30 minutes when it’s 100+ after work and I’m not going to melt. Likewise, I can take shorts and a tee shirt, plus my sneakers and get in a 20-30 minute walk at work. It’ll be movement. I know someone who has a heart problem, who is out every single day, RUNNING. If she can do that, I’m pretty darned sure I can get my lazy butt off the couch and “move it, move it.”
I went to a bike shop yesterday to find a good pair of cycling shorts because I DO want to start riding more. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to get any help because there were a bunch of super fit guys in there. I need to learn to not let my insecurities get the best of me. I need to learn to ask for help, especially when it comes to making sure I’m fitted out to be able to do what I eventually want to do, which is to try to ride with a cycling club. I like cycling enough that I’m thinking I’d like to try it.
Thursday nights are supposed to be my rest nights from my workouts that I attempt at home. They’re also my weekly Weight Watchers meeting nights. One of the ladies I attend meetings with and I have been emailing and texting back and forth. She asked me was I attending tonight. I said, “Yes, but I don’t want to weigh in. I will, however, because even though I don’t want to, I need to.” Therefore, I went, I weighed, I came away happy.
I don’t exercise consistently and I’m sure I don’t track like I’m supposed to. I do know that I feel much better than I have felt in a long time. (We don’t talk about my injuries which are pretty much caused by me, myself and I…) This 10% is a lot of determination, work, lack of work and a lot of support by people who care about me. I can count on the people who actively support me. They are the ones I want to dedicate this milestone to. If I didn’t have those few people, I wouldn’t have the successes I’ve seen recently. I have been actively encouraged by my friends to keep up with what I am doing. I have people who tell me, “you look really good…” etc. They’re not the ones who are telling me “Keep going. You CAN do it.” These people have encouraged me actively to own my mistakes. Well, you guys are the reason for this.
It’s the first day of 2013 and I am happy to say that I have been successful in ONE THING. I have successfully tracked *all* my food that I’ve eaten today. Hooray!! Score one for me! I need to document my eating all the time. I’ve heard people say “I know what I can eat and what I can’t eat, so I don’t need to track.” Well, congratulations! You’re a MUCH better person than me! In order for me to be successful, I have to document. It’s training to see what I’m actually putting into my mouth. I’m also documenting my activities. I posted on Facebook yesterday that I was bummed out that 20 minutes of vacuuming was not very many activity points. The point is, I moved my butt!
Fitbit says I’ve only walked about 25,040 steps this week. Again, HOORAY!! It’s tiny. There are people on my friends list (whom I would hide but I’m not going to–I just deliberately ignore them) who have hundreds of thousands of steps. I don’t get that many steps in a week. It was bad enough that I deliberately changed my 10,000 step/daily goal to less. I sit all day long and don’t move. Last week when my office was practically empty due to holidays, I got the most activity I’ve gotten in a really long time. As I’m also not out riding my bike, my steps are also lower. That will change once it warms up. Until then, I’ll have to figure out what to do to get my activity level up.
I was invited to a push up competition for the month of January. I haven’t clicked on the ‘accept’ yet. There’s no need for my fitness fails to be out in the public where I can be judged. I’m rather a solitary person. I don’t like to publicize my failures. That’s why I asked a small group of friends to help me. I don’t post my status updates on Facebook. They get once a week updates and that’s enough. Of course, if I get a “get your ass moving” text, I don’t take offense either.
I read the Fitness Magazine article about Allison Sweeney. She said she had to put aside her feelings of having to be “perfect”. I’m going to look at taking her advice. It’s not hurting anyone but me. I’m only in competition with myself.