I have been tracking faithfully on MyFitnessPal and somewhat faithfully on eTools, plus using a paper tracker so I can find where my issues are. It’s amazing to see how many times I “overate”. When I did, I found a surprise too–I lost weight!! That was a huge surprise. Even bigger was the fact that I am adding protein to what I typically eat–eating MORE and that’s been the key to my losses. No, I’m not losing huge amounts (we’d all be scared senseless!) but I’m seeing some losses.
This week, I didn’t eat as well as I should have and I saw a gain. It was .8. I didn’t freak out, I didn’t go ballistic and pout. I accepted it. I knew, going in, that I’d probably see a gain. Again, not a big deal. Gains and losses are part of the journey. I just have to knuckle down and refocus, remember to TRACK and keep it up. I’m not confident enough in my abilities to know completely how many points something is. Part of the key to success is being able to recognize this. I’m working on it.
I have a week (well, four days) to work on eating right. I also need to add in exercise because I want to start being more active. I’ve made excuses and that’s all they are–excuses. I’ve said “It’s too hot.” or “I’m too tired”. Those are JUST excuses. I can ride my bike for 30 minutes when it’s 100+ after work and I’m not going to melt. Likewise, I can take shorts and a tee shirt, plus my sneakers and get in a 20-30 minute walk at work. It’ll be movement. I know someone who has a heart problem, who is out every single day, RUNNING. If she can do that, I’m pretty darned sure I can get my lazy butt off the couch and “move it, move it.”
I went to a bike shop yesterday to find a good pair of cycling shorts because I DO want to start riding more. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to get any help because there were a bunch of super fit guys in there. I need to learn to not let my insecurities get the best of me. I need to learn to ask for help, especially when it comes to making sure I’m fitted out to be able to do what I eventually want to do, which is to try to ride with a cycling club. I like cycling enough that I’m thinking I’d like to try it.
I weighed in last night and was UP another .2. Now I know I’m not the most conscientious eater. I do eat things that I “shouldn’t eat”. I eat salt on my pasta. I eat chocolate (love my chocolate!!). I eat cakes and cookies upon occasion too.
So when I weighed in and it was up, I went nuts. I’ve been faithfully documenting my food intake. I’m NOT hiding it. I don’t use the eTools that I’m paying for, but I use MFP and I’m USING IT!! I’ve checked in and logged my food daily for a month. What I’m seeing and my consciences (you know who you are!!) are seeing is that I eat too much sodium. Processed food, crap like that. My dear friend, S, recommended I make my own goodies. She said she knows people who do and they’re happy and not whining about their weight like I am. (She never said I was whining, I did, because I am.)
MFP is a habit I’m not likely to break now that I’ve been doing it for over a month. I need to add in eTools now and do that religiously. I need to get in those important things like oils (olive, canola, something–in my oatmeal? Ummmmm. I’ll think about that!! You’re suggesting that to a hard headed mule, I’ll have you know!!) and my multivitamins in. I carry them to work, but what’s the point of that if you don’t take them?
The point of this blog isn’t to sit and say “oh poor me, I’m not losing weight, feel sorry for me.” It’s to say, “Okay, you aren’t eating healthy foods, you need more veggies (need a tracker for that, thank you MFP!!) and you need to keep exercising.” I *have* added exercise into my daily regime. I have a new Beachbody DVD that I love because it’s kickboxing and is lots of fun! In fact, I didn’t do it yesterday, so I get to do it today.
I asked someone if I could go walk with her on Sunday. 7 1/2 miles.. I think that makes part of the 5k’s you wanted me to walk in 2 weeks, K. I’ll do it!!
So check with me in a couple of days and see if I’m actually walking the walk. I need accountability and I need a quick shove in the back.
Even when I think I’m getting enough movement in, I find out that I’m not. I did numerous loads of laundry today, which necessitated walking to and from my master bedroom multiple times, plus going into the laundry room and back out. Did I get many steps? Not only no, but absolutely, resoundingly NO WAY. It’s frustrating. I wanted to think that I was a fairly active person today, but even going to Walmart for a small-ish shopping trip wasn’t enough to raise me up over 5k steps. I won’t make my plan today, that’s for sure.
I have done other exercise today, so I am not bashing myself under any circumstances. However, I know that in order to lose weight, you have to burn more calories than you consume. That’s the law of weight loss, as we all know. Now I have to figure out what to do to increase my activity level. Some ideas include riding my bike (weather permitting), walking somewhere (again, weather permitting, unless I go to a mall, which isn’t likely), push ups (not going to earn me activity points), Wii Fit, dancing, etc. It’s frustrating to me. I want to be able to go brag to my friends, “Hey, I just worked out and did this, this, this and this.” Instead, I have to maintain radio silence. The only good thing is, I’m not eating tons of food. In fact, at present, despite me buying things for dinner, I’m not likely to eat because I’m not overly hungry. I’m listening to that cue from my body. I’m feeling “blah” as my daughter and I like to say. It’s not a good feeling. I feel like I’ve eaten entirely too much and yet, I can list what I have eaten and it’s again, not high points. Maybe it was the romaine lettuce I devoured for lunch. 0 points, except for the salad dressing (fat-free honey mustard). I’m just all of a sudden feeling rather-stuffed. Lunch was many hours ago too.
I guess I need to go chase my lawn mower around my yard again. I’m sure I’ll get some activity that way and it’s something I actually like doing.
I’ve been on and off Weight Watchers for many rounds during my adult life. I had lost a great deal of weight while I was in training to earn my black belt, but wound up slacking off. That was 2006-2007. Then I re-joined Weight Watchers in 2009, but for a short time. I wasn’t nearly as successful as I thought I should be. That incarnation didn’t last long because I was attempting it all Online, not by attending meetings.
In 2012, I decided that enough was enough. I needed to get my eating under control. Weight Watchers was the logical choice for me because I am a very hard-headed person who doesn’t like being told what to eat, when to eat and how much to eat. I am extremely rebellious in that sense. Bear in mind, I’ve had numerous suggestions that I needed to have lap band surgery, I needed to eat less, join Jenny Craig, do Medifast, whatever. Weight loss is a high dollar industry.
I decided that I was going to re-join Weight Watchers. I WANT this. I WANT to be successful. I WILL be successful. I need the accountability and I get it. This is a change of seasons, so to speak. No more am I subscribing to the “I can’t lose weight” mentality. I don’t care if people think I’m odd for counting points and for being obsessed by my weight. I have to. I WANT to. Want is the driving factor here.
I have had a good experience this time around. I’m finding that I want to eat healthier and that now it’s rubbing off on my children. They are learning to make better choices. We’re changing our lifestyles to suit US. There is no push from external forces to follow any special plan. It is our lifestyle, our plan, our wants. For once, we are living the way we should–not according to any one person’s mandate, but as a healthy, happy family.
I joined a fitness challenge because I wanted to join it. It’s a thirty day fitness challenge. I’ve already gone out of my comfort zone by posting a couple of pictures and my weight and my measurements. I don’t like the measurements and the pictures, but I’m not going to weasel out of my group. I have the support of a few people who are near and dear to me. They encouraged me to join this venture. I am going to see how the next thirty days pans out. I feel confident that I will be successful-because I want to.