By now, you know that I struggle immensely with my weight. I am a committed Weight Watchers follower. I’m a ‘wanna be’ on the exercise department. I don’t go out and work out at a gym. I am a ‘home exerciser’. I have a select few people I trust to egg me on, to be there to cheer for me and to literally kick my butt when I get whiny and feel sorry for myself. It’s an investment they’re making in me, that belief that I will succeed. I can’t do less than prove them right.
I know that I’ve been rather negative about things that have really irritated me, but I’m trying a new tactic. The people who make it a point to post on Facebook daily about how they spent 4+ hours in their gym? Good job! Spend another 4+ hours there tomorrow. And the day after. Glad you’re making that change to your life! I used to feel like I was having it shoved down my throat, like it was a “Look at me! I’m better than you because I work out all the time!” I’ve since taken a look at what they’re doing (getting healthier) and looked at what I do for myself and it’s basically the same thing? I can’t afford a gym, so my gym is my living room, with Shaun T’s Hip Hop Abs and Rockin’ Body DVDs. When I get bored with that, I have a bicycle and some of the prettiest weather there is during the winter. So no, their “bragging” isn’t bugging me anymore. I’m glad they’re doing what they do. I do what I do, but don’t post it routinely. I post a different sort of a thing to my people who hold me accountable for my actions.
Sure, it’s rough. I wasn’t exercising regularly about 3 months ago. I joined a group and am expected to exercise every day, so I do. Even if it’s just belly dance, it’s working out. It’s MOVING. That’s what I need.
I’m celebrating, in a small way. I’m under the double century mark. I hit 198.8 this morning, which is a LOT lighter than I’ve been in forever. No, I’m not all bulked up with muscle. Yes, I do eat and no, not always “right. However, I made the decision that this is for me and me alone. No competition with anyone else. So if I see someone posting their exercise success, I’ll applaud them from here, quietly, then go back to what I’m doing. As long as the Accountability group knows what I’m doing, and as long as my weigh ins at WW are continuing that tiny step down every week, I’ll be fine. So it’s not a ginormous loss! My husband pointed out that I “didn’t get where I am overnight, so why should I expect it to all come off overnight?” Of course, he has to be the sensible one and make me say “D’OH!”
I’ve got to go now. I have a bike ride planned and I want to get moving. I have an appointment this afternoon that I want to feel like I truly earned and this bike ride is going to do it for me.