I love October. It’s a month of changes. Leaves turn, days turn cooler, nights get longer. Everything starts slowing down from the constant “run, run, run” of summer, where everything needs to be done to take advantage of the daylight. Now it’s the time to slow down, to start reflecting on how your year has gone. It’s a time of preparation for winter. There is still daylight, but the quality of light has subtly shifted, from a harsh, bright light to a more subdued, softer light.
I’m ready for Samhain as well. I have been itching to get my decorations out since possibly mid-September. Out of respect for my neighbors, who might not be as excited about the season as I am, I didn’t put anything out. Today, however, is another story. I’m planning. I’ve been thinking about trying to create a Samhain decoration that requires chicken wire and glow in the dark paint. I am still thinking about whether I’m going to do that or not. I have pumpkins to put out. My oldest has put something on the living room window (I’ve not looked at that yet) and is with me about decorating.
I’ve felt like I’ve been cast adrift for the past six to eight weeks. We’ve had some things going on in our home life which has been not quite devastating but serious. We’re making changes. I also feel like I’ve been shut out by a couple of people. I defended something someone said about something else and that caused hard feelings. Those hard feelings appear not to have abated in six weeks, so…I’m cast off. I guess I’ll just get over it. I know there are people who don’t care that my mouth opens and stray thoughts walk out unattended. They may not agree with me, but they stand behind me, which is all I ask for.
October is a time of change. My changes are going to be to work on letting go of the hurts that I’ve been carrying. I’m working on my health and my family’s health. I’m working on learning to be me.
Change is good. Welcome October.